The countdown begins again

James and I after a long week. :)


I don't know if my body just didn't know how to stop moving, or if it was rebelling and asking me to take the time to do something frivolous, but I could not sleep last night. It is definitely frustrating when you finish up a weekend feeling happy and productive, only to lie awake the entire night after. I need to start my week rested. I am always tired by the end of it, so it is no good to start it that way. ugh. This was one of those mornings where you convince yourself your boss will understand, then luckily you have enough sense when your alarm goes off to accept reality. My reality this morning was I already reset my alarm to the latest I could. My phone seemed to be beeping "No snooze for you!" Hehehe.


Tonight I check in to see if I have jury duty... they waived me last week, but this week I am still on call. Part of me hopes they call me in and I sit there all day. I will be forced to edit photos. I have been a bit of a slacker in that area. Tonight there are two paths laid before me. Come home, check in, discover I am waived again, take nyquil before bed. That, or come home, check in, discover I have to report, pack bag, spend night at Em & Jess's (down street from courthouse), inevitably stay up talking, still tired tomorrow but at least for a good reason. Either plan involve GG & OTH, so I guess my night will enjoyable no matter what.

Here's to another countdown to friday... but then heck, I'll just take a well rested night...
Toodles.

sweet revenge

Um... so pretty much everyone I know has seen the Sarah Silverman/Matt Damon video. Buuuut apparently not everyone has seen the response to it. Which I thought was fantastic. So here it is for your viewing pleasure!

Work in progress

SO I know I have been MIA, but seeing as this is my first open weekend in a very long time, I have chosen to spend my time being productive. My to-do list for the home has grown very long! I spent most of yesterday shopping with Beast to prepare for my projects. Today will mostly be cleaning, organizing, and prepping for the big transitions next week :)
I will try to post before and afters, for those who enjoy them.

In other news, I finally caught up on the office! woohoo! the hilarity ensues...

Enjoy the rest of your weekend!

3 more days...

I desperately need the weekend to be here

...

You talk too much.
Maybe that's your way
Of breaking up the silence
That fills you up.
But it doesn't sound the same
When no one's really listening

We stumble into our lives:
Reach for a hand to hold.
And any wonder
We need to find
A certain something, certain.

Turn out the light
And what are you left with?
Open up my hands
And find out they're empty.
Press my face to the ground
I've gotta find a reason.
Just scratching around
For something to believe in:
Something to believe in.

You have too much.
You're spending all your time
Collecting and discovering
It's not enough.
And no matter how you try,
You never find the one you want.

We stumble into our lives:
Without a hand to hold.
And any wonder
We need to find
A certain something, certain.

Turn out the light
And what are you left with?
Open up my hands
And find out they're empty.
Press my face to the ground
I've gotta find a reason.
Still scratching around
For something to believe in:
Something to believe in.

I just need something to believe in

home sweet home (?)

I'm leaving for Oakhurst this afternoon to spend a final weekend in my stepDADs home, pick through childhood tokens to bring back into my life or choose to discard, and in many ways say good bye to the town I was raised in. My mother already left over a year ago, the home I was raised in has been sold, the pets have been relocated. That was a strange reality to deal with, but Chuck still had his place. Now he is moving and I  have no place to call home in my hometown. I am beyond happy for him, for know with him there is no loss... he will be my daddy wherever he is in this world! However, I have many bittersweet feelings about letting go of this little town. Nearly every innocent memory of my life happened there. I have so much pain associated with that town in my later years, but there is not a street or center or park that does not hold at least a flash of memories. All the wishes and efforts I have been pushing back are now sadly hanging their heads as I may have lost my chance.

Upon hearing the news, I had a flash flood of thoughts pass through my mind...

-Will I ever have another El Cid, where people smile and simply bring out my order because why waste time with menus?

-Will I ever take James to watch fireworks over the lake from under a blanket on "the rock"... share my favorite childhood memory... 

-Will I have any reason to step into the churches that raised me and gave me a chance at a whole life (given the state of my broken family)?

I know that I can go back... not having a house in this little town does not mean I can never return. However, I also feel that this move is pressing me to finally let go completely. There are reasons I left. There are reasons my dad must go.

My home now is a tiny place that I share with James, my new family. He is my home. 

But... I continually ask myself...

How do you let go of your past without feeling like you are losing an important piece of who you are?

Perhaps I'll have that answer soon

-

1,000 words

But most of those words would be interrupted by laughter.

I  managed to dodge the curse and have a fabulous birthday.

More photos to come soon.

stroke of genius

The music and mac nerds inside of me have gotten together for a play date, eaten lots of sugar, jumped on the beds, and are currently outside shaving the neighbors cat.

but perhaps I should explain myself...

For those of you who have installed the newest Itunes update, I hope you are taking advantage of the newest addition... the "Genius". I guarentee itunes will now be my closest and most trusted mix making cohort. I can see exactly what they are doing... another "genius" plan to take my money, $1.99 at a time... but I am not insulted, instead I applaud them. 

The day after...

To do list:

1. Eat leftovers from cheesecake factory. (yum)

2. Dont tell James you had leftover Keylime cheesecake so he still splits the other piece you brought home  (its their original layered with choco cake... also yum).

3. Watch Tv and/or movie

4. Iron awesome designs onto friends shirts for party tomorrow

5. Read

6. Interrupt James while he works on his article to get hug.

7. Surf internet

8. Decide on new hairstyle

9. Interrupt James again (cause you can never get too many hugs)

Can you think of anything else?

27 candles

I never thought this would be my birthday wish, but if I blew a candle out at midnight tonight, I would be wishing for my Doctor to tell me tomorrow morning that I need to stay home for the rest of the week. Makes for a sad birthday, but I really need the rest and it's the only way my boss will acknowledge that...

Maybe I shouldn't admit that outloud. The curse might find out and foil my plans yet again

At least I have Mr Hoppleton beside me to help me through this time.

Oh September....

So I am pretty sure "the curse" has reared its ugly head.

I will officially be sick tomorrow, and as I will not be allowed to take anytime off work this week to rest, I will most likely be as sick or worse for the festivities on Saturday. 

Also, instead of getting friday off, as I requested weeks ago, I will now spend it at work attending a good bye party for my most reliable and kindest staff member. 

oi. 

Guilty Pleasures

2 of my shows have returned.

hoorah.

2 more weeks til their friends join them